Me...

Yesterday was a great day. It was cloudy and rainy most of the time. I didnt do a darn thing and it was nice. I was thinking of what I was going to say all nite and all day today and I had a million things I wanted to chat about, now I sit here with a blank mind. I have been getting up early, around seven, in the morning to check on my pond. For two weeks now I have had a pesky bird in the pond having breakfast, well only on mondays. If I let my guard down he shows up. He has taken two of my shabunkins. The thief is a full grown Blue Heron. I have had the fish for two years now and not one time have I had problems with birds or any other creature. I guess my day was coming. So I have put the net back on the pond and bought a floating alligator. He hasnt been back since I put the alligator in there.

I kinda got off on the wrong track here. I was going to talk about me. I grew up with two sisters, younger than me, in north texas. Just your ordinary average family. The family was kinda close, just not your affectionate type. It was ok. Back then I was short, shy, and skinny. A whimp to tell the truth. I wasnt very good in any of the sports, so I quit trying. What ever interested me at the time I didnt do it. Playing with the neighborhood kids was the best part of being a kid. My family didnt have much money so we didnt get to do much. I think back when I was 14 we moved to southwest oklahoma. Dad got a job teaching for underpriviliged teenagers. The town we moved to was really small. Everybody new everybody's business. Jr. high and high school wasnt really exciting. If you didnt grow up with classmates you were considered an outsider. So I had a couple of friends that had moved there later. I still talk to them on occasion. Most of the people in the small town were related in some way. Well the year I graduated was eventful. I had a business of my own, manager of a movie theater in town, and bought me a brand new car. I enrolled for college for the following fall and had me a girlfriend, well sort of. Mom had an affair and moved to northeast oklahoma with her fella. So mom and dad got a divorce. After that, things at home were not going very good so I moved to northeast oklahoma. Been here ever since and here I sit. Meanwhile, mom and dad remarried other people. Mom had two boys and Dad married a lesbian (was going to change her I guess) and they had one boy. Later on my sisters and I found out dad had an affair when we lived in north texas and that produced another boy. Wow I had four younger brothers. Three of them are twenty years younger than me. I watched two of them grow up. They are great and have families of their own now. As for me, I went to another college and got an associates degree and dropped out one semester before getting my bachelors degree. I worked for a company for eighteen years before I quit there. I was given an ultimatum "IF YOU DONT LIKE WHAT YOUR DOING HERE, THEN GO FIND SOMETHING YOU WANT TO DO", So I waved goodbye. That was the best thing I ever did, I should have done it sooner. I worked there because they promised me great things. I was a fool, dont know why that surprised me, been that way all my life. I gave the best years of my life for that company. I was on call twenty four seven. I did the best job possible considering what I had to do. Here is the list: I worked in the manufacturing part, landscaped the boss' house, pool boy, housecleaner, laundry, cook, and other miscellaneous things. I took care of the rental property, cleaned and took applications. I was a truck driver, getting parts, deliveries of product. Made sure vehicles were properly serviced. Managed the semi trucking business, made sure trucks had products to deliver and pick up on back hauls, hired and fired drivers. Then there was the cattle business. Managed seven hundred acres and four hundred head of cattle, too much to mention there. Then there was hay cutting, hay hauling, we were for hire so we did many acres for other people. During the spring and summer I dont remember sleeping at all. And I did this for eighteen years. And got yelled at, at least three times a week and that was a good week. Those were the days. Now I go to work in the evenings and get out of there around twelve thirty in the morning. I have been with the same company for eight years and have been doing the same job for six years. Kinda boring, but a whole lot easier and I dont have to take it home. I really didnt have any dreams except to be somebody. Well it didnt happen. I am just a below average middle aged american (european decendant) paying taxes. I work for a living, not to make money. I have tried numerous times to get out be somebody and do something but always failed. Whoever said "You can do anything you want if you put your mind to it" is full of crap. And on that note I am out of here. (and if you comment about my grammar, DONT!)